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TAR-Q 5 CHEER SQUAD PART II

“EVERYBODY KNOW WHAT WE’RE HERE TO DO , WE ARE TARLIM CHEERS AND WE’RE HERE FOR YOU ! SHOUT TO SHOUT WE’RE GONNA GIVE YOU SHOUT , WE’LL NEVER STOP TO BE THE BEST FOR YOU . . SO C’MON AND LET’S GO FIGHT !!! GOOOOOOO TAAARLIIIIM !!!” ♪♫ ҉\(˘▽˘)> ҉\(˘▽˘)/҉

TAR-Q 5 CHEER SQUAD

“WE ARE THE CHEERS , WE ARE THE CHEERS FROM TAR-Q 5 WE ARE THE STAAAARS , WE’LL GIVE YOU LIGHT ALL DAY AND NIGHT SO COME ON GIRRRLSSS , AND SHAKE YOUR BUTT !!!” ♪♫ ҉\(˘▽˘)> ҉\(˘▽˘)/҉

TWO be TRUE ?

I’ve loved you with all my heart
But I Couldn’t see we could be such apart
If loving you were this hard
I won’t let myself off its guard

All I hoped for is you to care
So we can grow the love we share
If our love was a truth or dare
I’ll said it is both to bear

I can only give my love to you
Oh , maybe it’s just like a poo
All the time we’ve shared this past two
Can I wish to be true ?

-sisy sharieffudin-

BREAK 4th of DECEMBER 2011

kemarin , setelah 22 bulan semuanya berlangsung . . saya memutuskan untuk mengambil keputusan yang tegas untuk diri saya sendiri . . mungkin terdengar terburu-buru atau mungkin terbawa emosi , namun menurut saya sebaiknya memang seperti ini . . saya memang kekanak-kanakan , saya egois , saya suka banyak menuntut , dan terkadang saya tidak bisa memaklumi dan memahami kesibukannya , namun dibalik itu semua saya SAYANG dan saya CINTA sama dia . . saya tidak pernah sekali pun berpikir suatu hari saya bangun pagi dan mau tidur dan tidak ada kabar sedikit pun darinya . . saya selalu berpikir dan mengkhayalkan hal-hal indah serta masa depan yang sempurna bersamanya . . namun akhirnya saya kehilangan akal sehat saya , logika saya . . saya jadi benar-benar tidak realistis ! perasaan saya yang terlalu dalam dan impian saya yang terlalu indah serta sempurna mengacaukan akal sehat saya . .

saya tidak akan membohongi perasaan saya sekarang , saya MASIH sangat sayang sama dia dan sejujurnya saya menyesal mengambil keputusan ini . . tapi saya tetap harus berpikir jernih dan terlebih SAYA HARUS MENYAYANGI DIRI SAYA SENDIRI LEBIH DARI SAYA MENYAYANGI NYA :) saya berhak bahagia , saya HARUS DIHARGAI , dan saya berhak mendapat perlakuan yang baik dari semua orang yang ada didekat saya TERLEBIH DARI ORANG YANG MENGANGGAP DIRINYA PASANGAN SAYA ! maka dari itu saya memutuskan untuk mengambil waktu pribadi UNTUK KAMI BERDUA . . bukan hanya untuk saya , tapi juga untuk dia . . saya ingin kami sama ² berpikir bagaimana kami kedepannya , akankah bisa terus bersama karena memang INGIN BERSAMA atau BISA BERPISAH karena ternyata cinta kami tidak sebegitu besarnya :)

time will tell …………………….. ♥ ☺
ALLAH KNOWS WHAT BEST FOR ME AND I BELIEVE IT

saya IKHLAS , PASRAH , dan saya tahu SAYA KUAT !

YOU HURT ME , AGAIN and AGAIN

it’s already several times you hurt me , but I keep forgiving you for all of that . . It hurts me so bad till I don’t even able to sleep well . . I don’t mind ! If that what I should achieve for being in such a deep love like this with you . . I keep telling myself to be patient because I believe all of the sickness and pain worth the happiness , but you keep doing everything that breaking my trust !

I know I’m not that kinda’ girl you hope for to be with you . . I know I’m not as beauty as you female friend , I know I’m not as hot as those model , I know I’m not that attractive . . I can’t be the girl you hoping for . . but one thing I know , I’m in love with you . . I just can give you love , care , and my loyalty . . I believe in you , I believe that you were the one that I’ve been waiting for such a long time . . I believe you were the one that God sends to embellish my life with your love and care . . I believe in you

No matter how many times you broke my heart , I’m still standing here . . giving you forgiveness and another chance ! again , again , again , again , and again . . I don’t even know when should I giving up on you ? I can’t !!! my love for you was TOO MUCH , it was TOO DEEP , it already crossed the boundaries I made . . I’m afraid !!! I’m afraid of losing you ! I’m really afraid

I’m begging you . . Pleaseeeee don’t ever hurt me again . . I don’t even know how to stop loving you , but I think I should reducing the love . . I don’t wanna be hurt again ! It was too much pain . . I’m not able to hold any more pain . . It was already TOO MUCH !

H.M. SHARIEFFUDIN ALI

21st of january 2011

It was so sudden , when I heard the news that you’ve been gone away leaving me with all the sweet memories which imprinted perfectly in my brain as well as my heart

I was confused and speechless back then . . what should I do ? was it real ? was it just a dream ? I kept asking that again and again . .

In my mind , I still saw you lying on hospital’s bed fighting all the pain and sickness which attacking you with no compromises . . You’re super strong and brave , Kai . . You’ve fought those massive sickness and pain for US !!! You’ve shown us your perfect SMILE in your sickness until the last time , the TIME which finally separates us , the TIME when God decided to took you from us , the TIME when you’ve decided to take a long nap along with om Endy in heaven

Some people might say you’re giving up ! but they all WRONG . . For me YOU’VE NEVER GIVING UP fighting those sickness !!! You’ve done way above your ability fighting those sickness and pain just to makes us-those who love you whom you love smile and happy . . We’re all happy , Kai :) we do happy ! we’re proud of you . . for all the attempts that you’ve done to recover from the sickness

For real , Kai . . I feels really really devastated ! It wasn’t because I’m not sincere about losing you , but it feels like there’s a part of me that gone either

Now you’re sleeping for such a looooong time , Kai . . NOT ACTUALLY GONE ! I believe you’re still watching us wherever you are . . You’re just taking a long rest . . Since I know you’re very exhausted fighting the sickness . . It was so much better than seeing you holding the massive pain for almost 3months . .

Kai , I promise to always take a good care of myself like you’ve told me for the last time ☺ I promise , Kai !

Have a pleasant long sleep , Kai . . I’m gonna miss you a lot , I really really really love you . . My Grandfather , My Teacher , My BestFriend , My Journalist , My Movie Director , MY HERO ♥

SWEET DREAMS KAI , GOOD NIGHT ☺
sisy sayaaaaaang banget sama kai ♥

I’m happy even though we’re still not sure about our future

todaaaay 22nd of november’10 ;

my boyfriend visiting me at home . . somehow in between our chat he told me something “aku maunya nikah sama kamu” ♥ AMIEN . . I’m so happy to hear that even though I don’t even sure enough about our future

when we want to go sleep , I ask him to “kelonin” before I go to dreamy island . . he told me “makanya kamu berdoa biar kita nikah , nanti aku kelonin kamu terus setiap hari sampe bosen” ♥ ♡ ♥ sounds cheesy right ? but those words TRUELY made my day ☺ and I wish it will coming TRUE as our future sooner or later . . please hear our prays dear God ☺ AMIEN